visuals. (tw: illness, blood, drug use.)

[symptomatic]

 

—You’re gonna be numb for a few more days. then you’ll go home and cry for a few weeks. And then you get angry. Start telling yourself nothing matters anymore. You start doing stupid things.

PROVE TO ME I'M NOT GONNA DIE ALONE.

—I wanted her to die, she just yelled so much, for no reason, just screamed at me in front of my friends. My father tried to explain to me that her brain was literally shrinking, that she didn't mean it and it was the disease, but I didn't care, I hated her. I never said goodbye, and she died, with me hating her.